Entry #2. My Only Child

 I always dreamed of having a daughter or two when I became an adult.  I didn't see my future without kids.  I have a huge extended family and I was always used to being around or babysitting babies and toddlers.  I always told my mom that I wanted a girl because I can relate being a female as well.  The  thought of dressing little girls in cute dresses, getting their prom dresses and then their wedding dresses.

I was fortunate to have one child and I got a girl.  I knew that there would be struggles in life, but I was not prepared for the challenges that the future had for me.  After giving birth, I found out that my daughter needed surgery due to having a soft cleft palate.  She also had to have tubes put into her ears.  Twenty-one years later, she got diagnosed with a rare type of cancer and she was in the stage four phase.  All that I could think of was how I was fortunate, but I felt like I was being reminded of how fortunate I really was.

I had them do both surgeries after I was able to hold her for the first time.  We battled the rare cancer together months after months until it was gone.  I cried and I was so sad, but I still felt fortunate that she was given to me even with the challenges.  I always asked myself why it was happening to me and if I did something wrong.  I learned that life can throw you curve balls, but you just have to stay strong and make yourself believe that you can overcome any obstacle as long as you try.